winter wonder land

greatest blue sky, deep fresh snow and a best friend to climb up mountains: life cant be better. Thanks, Lydia! Love ya! And the snow. Wanted to show it to my dearest kids but that might take a little bit more time and preparation, but I promise both of you: we will be there together the next time! as soon as I fighted down what drags me right now, I will be there with both of you in exactly this snow! Thought of you, my dearest kids, all the time.  Love ya, too!

Happy New Year 2012

Sunrise into the New Year at our beach. 

A first to me to see in my 50 years of life. 

A bright path into a bright future. 

Still living in my mind in my beloved German life, whilst my body has to be here. 

2012 shall bring settlement and strength to me and to all of us, wherever we are. 

The sun rises anywhere anyhow, isnt it.

Happy New Year 2012!

kamakura

moso bamboo at Hokokuji Temple. beautiful greygreen shades

amazingly strong

amazingly dynamic

love those fishes' colour!

"senryo", the New Year's berry

Ms. Kubota, my dear German student

love your always so friendly smile, Kubota-san!

still autumn here

maple leaf's lace

gingko tree's beautiful yellow

those Kamakura moments

a flowering cherry tree in december

I try to enjoy Japan. Which is not easy to me in the moment. A strange wave took me back to here. Actually we should stay now in Germany for Christmas and for our Foreign Year out of the country. It did not work out. Reasons? No reasons. Beside strange coincidences, strange chain reactions. Strange behaviour of me, which is really difficult to explain, a mixture out of exhaustion and fear beyond, I guess, a missing of clear vision, a missing of a clear plan, my brain seems to be backwards bound, always on delay, and that brought us back to here. I do not feel right in place in the moment, my mind wandering to Germany, thinking of what could have been, what should have been, finding no answer why I am actually back to here. Would love to be back in summer doing the right things at the right moment. That would have me now sitting in front of an open fire, caressing a cat, looking out to a snowy garden, all dreams of mine.......I have to be very careful to not fall into even deeper depression about this strange situation. I could have had it, if I wouldnt have entered that plane....nobody will ever be able to understand it and I cant explain it, am just very sad about what we missed.
My German student, Ms. Kubota, tried to show me the beauty of Japan and for some moments, my brain was able to relax. Kamakura is for sure a really beautiful city. Thank you so much, Kubota-san, for taking me out. It helped for a short time to take away my sadness. But, I guess, it will only go away if I find a way to go back to my country with my children, but this will take time.....hope for me that I can stand it until then.
In the pamphlet of Hokokuji Temple is says "We wish your visit to this temple will bring you peace of mind". Exactly what I need so urgently. 

more serendipity cafe

 Serendipity Cafe has this wonderful ocre toned walls and it has the most lovely wooden windows, nothing more beautiful than wooden window frames! ( and believe me, I know what I talk about, since I am living with aluminium frame windows here at my place, ughhhh)

 goods from our shop, Advent Candles, Dr. Rick Tan's Waldorf postcards etc.

 aren't these twigs funny? These are Sekka Sugi, a special kind of Cryptomeria tortuosa.

To me, they look like  miniature Dwarf Christmas Trees!

and not to forget, the incredible handmade Christmas Cookies. So adorable!

Serendipity Cafe

 

Christmas decoration at SERENDIPITY CAFE

We added some rowan twigs ( Sorbus, with their beautiful red berries and grey skin)  and our christmas decorations to the already beautiful walls and interiors of this really cozy space with lots of good food and music.

Please visit Serendipity Cafe in Chigasaki!

253-0025 Chigasaki, Matsugaoka 1-7-35

Tel 0467-84-5244

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LEBE

How much I love this poem by Joseph Beuys, how much I would love to live it.
it says:
LIVE
let yourself fall
learn to watch snakes
plant impossible gardens
invite somebody dangerous for tea
make small gestures
be friend of freedom and unsafetiness
look forward to dreams
weep while watching movies
fly as high as possible
do things out of love
sleep a lot
pass money
do it now
believe in magic
laugh a lot
take children for serious
bath in the moonlight
read every day
imagine you are magic
listen to old people
look forward
let fear go
talk to your inner child
hug trees
write letters

LIVE!

Our 7th place to be

12 times moving between in total 7 places. Finally we landed. The other places were good places too, but this one is very very special: it has an open fire and it has a laundry line! In the garden! And this is a big huge dream of mine.

I am feeling like being in Sweden, wide lush greenery in front of us, water everywhere. My daughter is outside every single second, running barefoot, what a life. And I enjoy this laundry line!

can you see the small river? Pure enjoy, pure energy.

green

GREEN

My colours changed from dark to green.

I did not post for a long time, having been in a dark world, tired and confused from a lot of constant changes. I don't want to tell you details, want to keep them closed in my heart. I am grateful for that time, it showed me many things. Now I start to rediscover the splendid GREEN around me. Love the summer in Germany, so many trees in lushing green, so many wide meadows, such wonderful the smell of fresh cut grass, will enjoy it through July before heading back to Japan in August.

The picture shows the view from the 7th place we stayed since March. Makes 7 moves in 3 months. And still 3 moves ahead of us. What a life.

family

For the very first time in our adult lifes, my 2 younger sisters and me were at the same time in our home town of Weingarten! We got together for Easter at my mum's place, and we all brought our kids with us.

We 3 sisters managed to get a boy and a girl each, imagine!

3 girls
Youngest sister's daughter Sophie, my own daughter Katarina, my middle sister's daughter Sarah

3 boys
My own son Kurando, my youngest sister's son Jan, my middle sister's son Kai

One good effect of the earthquake was to shake us together for Easter and fulfil my mum's longtime wish of having all her children and all her grandchildren  in one place!